LESTER LEVENSON
LESTER LEVENSON Story of Enlightenment ( Sedona Method, Release Technique )
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1909-1994, UNITED STATES
ESTER levenson is relatively unknown to most spiritual seekers, Iunless they have come upon what is called the "Sedona Method" .J Lester's own method of achieving enlightenment, which has been systematized for his students. A self-made man, Lester was not particularly spiritual in his early years. A physicist and engineer, he also achieved financial success in restaurant, lumber, building, oil, and real estate businesses. He lived in New York City, and his life revolved mainly around his relationships with women and his business endeavors, al-
though he was also an avid patron of the arts.
By 1952, however, at the age of forty-two, after his second heart at-
tack, Lester found himself on the brink of death. Suffering also from chronic jaundice, kidney stones, migraine headaches, and a perforated ulcer, Lester was abandoned by his doctor and sent home to die.
Not eager to succumb to his physician's death sentence, Lester began seriously to question and reevaluate the very purpose of his life. Over a three-month period, he not only succeeded at releasing each and every obstacle to his happiness, but all of his health problems spon- taneously disappeared! Lester found a way to become enormously happy and to develop yogic powers he had never even known existed. All this without any spiritual instruction whatsoever.
Realizing that his problems were self-caused by his own erroneous thinking, Lester found freedom. When he was able to release negative thoughts and feelings, he felt tremendous relief and inner peace. Lester became acutely aware that the only time he had been really happy was not when he was loved, but when he was loving others, particularly the women in his life. He resolved to love not only women, but everyone he met, and to release any feelings that interfered with that loving. Such an attitude served to enhance his happiness even more.
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Soon Lester noticed that his life changed dramatically for the better. Having discovered the secrets of happiness and freedom, he found him- self identified with every being and every atom in the universe. Lester saw God in everyone and everything and was in a state of complete harmony. His delight knew no bounds.
Following his realization, Lester relinquished his businesses and moved to the desert outside Sedona, Arizona. He taught small groups of students, whoever found him out of their own search for ultimate free- dom. Eventually a center grew around him, though Lester never sought fame. For nearly twenty years, he and his students shared the Sedona Method with people from all walks of life, including Hollywood celebri- ties. Lester Levenson's sole desire was to share with others what he had been so fortunate to realize: permanent happiness.
The selection is from unpublished autobiographical material by Lester Levenson, made available by Hale Dwoskin, a student of Lester's for eighteen years, who carries on his work.
RELEASING FOR ULTIMATE FREEDOM
i wasattheendofmyrope.Iwastoldnottotakeastepunless I absolutely had to because there was a possibility that I could drop dead at any moment. This was a terrible, shocking thing to suddenly be told that I couldn't be active anymore, having been so active all my life. It was a horrible thing.
An intense fear of dying overwhelmed me, the fear that I might drop dead any minute. This stayed with me for days. I went through a real, horrible, low, spinning period there, in the grip of intense fear of dying or of being a cripple for the rest of my life in that I wouldn't be able to be active. How could I take care of all that, and me. I felt that life would not be worthwhile any more.
This caused me to conclude with determination, "Either I get the answers, or I'll take me off this earth. No heart attack will do
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it!" I had a nice easy way to do it, too. I had morphine the doc- tors gave me for my kidney stone attacks.
After several days of this intense fear of dying, I suddenly re- alized, "Well, I'm still alive. As long as I'm alive there's hope. As long as I'm alive, maybe I can get out of this. What do I do?"
Well, I was always a smart boy, always made the honor roll. Even got myself a four-year scholarship to Rutgers University at a time when scholarships were very rare through competitive ex- aminations. But what does this avail me? Nothing! Here I am with all this brilliance, as miserable and scared as can be.
Then I said, "Lester, you were not only not smart, you were dumb! Dumb! Dumb! There's something wrong in your intel- lect. With all your knowledge, you've come to this bottom end! Drop all this knowledge you've so studiously picked up on phi- losophy, psychology, social science, and economics! It is of no avail! Start from scratch. Begin all over again your search for the answers."
And with an extreme desperation and intense wanting out not wanting to die, I began to question, "What am I? What is this world? What is my relationship to it? What do I want from it?"
"Happiness."
"'Well, what is happiness?"
"Being loved."
"But I am loved. I know several very desirable girls with
beauty, charm, and intellect who want me. And I have the esteem of my friends. Yet, I'm miserable!"
I sensed that the closest thing related to happiness was love. So I began reviewing and reliving my past love affairs, looking at the points where the little happiness that I had were. I began to pull up and dissect all my high moments of loving. Suddenly, I got an inkling that it was when I was loving that I had the highest feeling!
I remembered one evening, a beautiful balmy evening, in the mountains when I was camping with Virginia. We were both lying on the grass, both looking up at the sky, and I had my arm
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around her. The nirvana, the perfection of the height of happi- ness was right there. I was feeling how great is love for Virginia! How wonderful is knowing all this nature! How perfect a set- ting!
Then I saw that it was my loving her that was the cause of this happiness! Not the beauty of the setting, or being with Virginia. Then I immediately turned to the other side. Boy it was great
when she loved me! I remembered the moment when publicly this beautiful, charming girl told the world that she approved of
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So, this momentary ego approval was not as great as the feel- ing of loving her! As long as I was loving her, I felt so happy. But when she loved me, there were only moments of happiness when she gave me approval.
Days of further cogitation gradually revealed to me that this was correct! I was happier when I loved her than I was when I got that momentary ego-satisfaction when she loved me. Her loving me was a momentary pleasure that needed constant showing and proving on her part, while my loving her was a con- stant happiness, as long as I was loving her.
I concluded that my happiness equated to my loving! If I could increase my loving, then I could increase my happiness! This was the first inkling I had as to what brings about happi- ness. And it was a tremendous thing because I hadn't had happi- ness. And I said, "Gee, if this is the key to happiness, I've got the greatest!" Even the hope of getting more and more happiness was a tremendous thing, because this was the number one thing
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love affairs. I dug up from the past, incident after incident when I thought I was loving, and I discovered that I was being nice to
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and I could feel that nice feeling of ap-
Lester, she loved Lester
proval. But I sensed that it was not as great as what I had just dis- covered. It was not a lasting feeling. It was just for the moment. In order for me to have that feeling continuously, she had to con- tinue saying that.
I wanted
That started me on weeks and weeks of reviewing my past
happiness.
my girlfriends, trying to get them to love me, and that that was selfish. That was not really love. That was just wanting my ego bolstered!
I kept reviewing incidents from the past, and where I saw that I was not loving, I would change that feeling to loving that per- son. Instead of wanting them to do something for me, I would change it to my wanting to do something for them. I kept this up until I couldn't find any more incidents to work on.
This insight on love, seeing that happiness was determined by my capacity to love, was a tremendous insight. It began to free me, and any bit of freedom when you're plagued feels so good. I knew that I was in the right direction. I had gotten hold of a link of the chain of happiness and was determined not to let go until I had the entire chain.
I felt a greater freedom. There was an easier concentration of my mind because of it. And I began to look better at my mind. What is my mind? What is intelligence?
Suddenly, a picture flashed of amusement park bumper-cars that are difficult to steer so that they continually bump into each other. They all get their electrical energy from the wire screen above the cars through a pole coming down to every car.
The power above was symbolic of the overall intelligence and energy of the universe coming down the pole to me and every- one else, and to the degree we step on the gas do we use it. Each driver of the cars is taking the amount of energy and intelligence that he wants from that wire, but he steers his car blindly and bumps into other cars, and bumps and bumps.
I saw that if I chose to, I could take more and more of that overall intelligence. And so I dug into that. I began to examine thinking and its relationship to what was happening. And it was revealed that everything that was happening had a prior thought behind it and that I never before related the thought and the happening because of the element of time between the two.
When I saw that everything that was happening to me had a thought of it before it happened, I realized that if I could grab
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hold of this, I could consciously determine everything that was happening to me!
And above all, I saw that I was responsible for everything that had happened to me, formerly thinking that the world was abus- ing me! I saw that my whole past life, and all that tremendous ef- fort to make money and in the end, failing, was due only to my thinking!
This was a tremendous piece of freedom, to think that I was not a victim of this world, that it lay within my power to arrange the world the way I wanted it to be, that rather than being an ef- fect of it, I could now be at cause over it and arrange it the way I would like it to be!
That was a tremendous realization, a tremendous feeling of freedom!
I was so ill when I started my searching; I had one foot in the grave. And when I saw that my thinking was cause for what was happening to me, I immediately saw my body from my chin down to my toes as perfect. And instantly, I knew it was perfect! I knew the lesions and adhesions of my intestine due to perforated ulcers were undone. I knew everything within me was in perfect running order. And it was.
Discovering that my happiness equated to my loving, discov- ering that my thinking was the cause of things happening to me in my life gave me more and more freedom. Freedom from un- conscious compulsions that I had to work, I had to make money, I had to have girls. Freedom in the feeling that I was now able to determine my destiny, I was now able to control my world, I was now able to arrange my environment to suit me. This new free- dom lightened my internal burden so greatly that I felt that I had no need to do anything.
Plus, the new happiness I was experiencing was so great! I was experiencing a joy that I had never known existed. I had never dreamed happiness could be so great.
I determined "If this is so great, I'm not going to let go of it until I carry it all the way!" I had no idea how joyous a person
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could be. So, I began digging further on how to extend this joy. I began further changing my attitudes on love. I would imagine the girl I wanted most marrying one of my friends, or the boy I would want her to marry least, and then enjoy their enjoying each other. To me, this was the extreme in loving, and if I could achieve it, it would give me more of this wonderful thing that I was experiencing.
And so I worked on it. I took a particular fellow, Burl, and a particular girl, and I wouldn't let go until I could really feel the joy of their enjoying each other.
who were opposing me no end when I was trying to help them. I would consciously feel the greatest love for them when they were attacking me. And the joy of loving them was so wonderful, I would, without any thought, thank them so profusely for having given me the opportunity of talking with them, that it threw them into a dither.
But I really felt that. I thanked them from the bottom of my heart for having given me the opportunity of loving them when they were making it as difficult as they possibly could. I didn't express that to them. I just thanked them for the opportunity of having been able to talk with them.
That I was able to do this was good news to me because, like other things, I was able to carry loving to the extreme. I could love people who were opposing me. And I would not stop until I could see the end of the line of this happiness I was getting. I would go higher and higher and higher and say, "Oh, my gosh, there can be nothing higher than this!" But I would try. And, I would go higher. Then I would say, "Oh, there can't be anything higher than this!" But I would try, and go higher! And then say, "Oh, there can't be anything happier than this!" until I realized there was no limit to happiness!
I would get incapacitated. I could look at my body, and I couldn't move it I was so top-heavy with ecstasy and joy. I was
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Then I knew I had it
or almost had —
it.
Then later on, I had further tests of this in talking to people
actually incapacitated. I would do this for hours, going higher and higher and then I would have to work for hours to keep coming down and down and down until I could start being the body again in order to operate it.
Contemplating the source of intelligence and energy, I dis- covered that energy, as well as intelligence, was available in un- limited amounts, and that it came simply by my freeing myself from all compulsions, inhibitions, entanglements, hang-ups. I saw that I had dammed up this energy, this power, and all I had to do was pry loose the logs of the dam which were my compul- sions and hang-ups
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things, I was removing logs and allowing this infinite energy to
and that was what I did. As I let go of these
flow, just like a water dam flows if you pull the logs out, one by one. The more logs you pull out, the greater the flow. All I needed to do was to remove these logs and let the infinite power and energy flow.
Seeing this, the power that was right behind my mind was al- lowed to flow through like it had never flowed before. There were times when I'd get this realization of what I am that would put so much energy into me, I would just jump up in the air from my chair. I would go right straight out the front door, and I would start walking and walking and walking, for hours at a
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I saw that the source of all this energy, of all intelligence was basically harmonious, and that harmony was the rule of the uni- verse. And that was why the planets were not colliding, and that was why the sun rose every day, and that was why everything went.
When I started my search, I was a very convinced and ab- solute materialist. The only thing that was real was that which
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sometimes for days at a time! I just felt as though my
time
body would not contain it, that I had to walk or run some of it off. I remember walking the streets of New York City in the wee hours of the morning, just walking at a very good pace, and not being able to do anything otherwise! I had to expend some of that energy. It was so tremendous.
you could feel and touch. My understanding of the world was as solid as concrete. And when some of these revelations came to me that the world was just a result of my mind, that thinking de- termined all matter, that matter had no intelligence, and that our intelligence determined all matter and everything about it. When I saw that the solidity that I formerly had was only a thought itself, my nice, solid, concrete foundations began to crack. Twenty years of buildup began to tumble.
And my body shook, and shook so much; I just shook for days. I shook just like a nervous old person. I knew that the con- crete view I had had of the world was never going to be again. But it didn't drop away gracefully, with ease. For days, I actually shook, until I think I shook the whole thing loose.
Then, my view was just the opposite of what it had been months previously, that the real solid thing was not the physical world, was not my mind, but something, which was much greater. The very essence, the very Beingness of me was the real- ity. It had no limits, it was eternal and all the things that I saw be- fore were the least of me, rather than the all of me. The all of me was my Beingness.
I saw that the only limitations I had were the ones that I ac- cepted. So, wanting to know what am I? And looking for this un- limited Being that I had had an inkling of, I got insight of this tremendous unlimited Being that I am.
And on seeing that, I right there and then realized, "Well, I'm not this limited body and I thought I was! I am not this mind with its limitations that I thought I was!" And I undid all body limitation, and almost all mind limitation, just by saying, "I am not it! Finished! Done! Period! That's it!," I so declared.
It was obvious to me that I wasn't that body and mind that I
one grand ocean. It's not chopped up into parts called drops of bodies. It's all one ocean.
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had thought I was. I just saw —
that's all! It's simple when you see it. I let go of identifying with this body. And when I did that, I saw that my Beingness was all Beingness. That Beingness is like
This caused me to identify with every being, every person and even every item in this universe. Then you are finished for- ever with separation and all the hellishness that's caused only by separation. Then you can no more be fooled by the apparent limitations of the world. You see them as a dream, as an appear- ancy, because you know that your very own Beingness has no limits.
In reality, the only thing that is, is Beingness. That is the real, changeless substance behind everything.
Everything of life itself was open to me—
standing of it. It is simply that we are infinite beings, over which we have superimposed concepts of limitation (the logs of the dam). And we are smarting under these limitations that we ac- cept for ourselves as though they are real, because they are op- posed to our basic nature of total freedom.
Life before and after my realization was at two different ex- tremes. Before, it was just extreme depression, intense misery, and sickness. After, it was a happiness and serenity that's inde- scribable. Life became so beautiful and so harmonious that all day, every day, everything would fall perfectly into line.
As I would drive through New York City, I would rarely hit a red light. When I would go to park my car, people sometimes two or three people would stop and even step into the street to help direct me into a parking space. There were times when taxi cab drivers would see me looking for a parking space and would give up their space for me. And after they did, they couldn't un- derstand why they had done it. There they were, double-parked!
Even policemen who were parked would move out and give me their parking place. And again, after they did, they couldn't understand why. But I knew they felt good in doing so. And they would continue to help me.
If I went into a store, the salesman would happily go out of his way to help me. Or, if I would order something in a restau- rant and then change my mind, the waitress would bring what I wanted, even though I hadn't told her.
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the total under-
Actually everyone moves to serve you as you just float around. When you are in tune and you have a thought, every atom in the universe moves to fulfill your thought. And this is true.
Being in harmony is such a delightful, delectable state, not because things are coming your way, but because of the feeling of God-in-operation. It's a tremendous feeling; you just cant imag- ine how great it is. It is such a delight when you're in tune, in harmony—you see God everywhere! You're watching God in op- eration. And that is what you enjoy, rather than the time, the in- cident, the happening. His operation is the ultimate.
When we get in tune, our capacity to love is so extreme that we love everyone with an extreme intensity which makes living the most delightful it could ever be.
From an unpublished autobiographical manuscript by Lester Levenson.
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